Well I am back at it again.... me

This time around I am going to stick to it. I need to get healthier for my family and for my sake. I am on weight watchers. I tell you points is hard to stick to, because some days food is just to good. I also eat when I am really emotional. And right now I feel like I am going through hell. But I am determined to work through this.

I have to be proud of myself so far. I have been sticking to some sort of diet, I joined a gym, and my scores for the highland games have been getting better. I am hoping to drop quite a bit of weight before Julie's wedding. wish me luck!

One of my main goal activities is DRINK MORE WATER. After taking those diet pills a long time ago I noticed I don't drink as much water as I used to. Which is bad because when I was on them I needed to drink more water as what the doctor had instructed. Instead I focused on other things like making sure I kept busy and didn't care much for food, which included drinking too (diet pills made me sooo not hungry ever!) After a while I got very sick and when I recovered I was told that I had to drink lots of water. I don't think I drink enough water which is my current issue so if I can maintain the intake of h20 (and less juice and sugary stuff) I think I'd be on the right path.

Juw's stat page has been updated. Go have a read. :P if you want.

So apparently because of my height, my ideal weight would be 42KG. I told Luke (my partner) that and his response was: "Fuck, if you were that light I could throw you around alright..." And the cheeky side of me kind of likes that thought. At least it's an aim right. It's a bit of a drastic aim but at least if I get close enough I would feel pretty good about it and it's not that hard if I focus and keep busy.

Luke is trying to lose weight as well. He's not eating as much during the day and switching to a low in carb beer, plus drinking beer less. Good for him. Whether I can get him walking with me every afternoon is another subject altogether. Not that I am walking every afternoon either. I should. I really should.

I should attempt to draw up another health schedule. Last time I did things were good, at least I organised my time pretty well and everytime I missed out on doing whatever activity the schedule instructed I could still pick up where I had left off without drama. I could also switch things around. So yeah that should be my next project. New timetable. It would have to be a new one because my time isn't really my own anymore, well it's shared so, yeah...

The first steps are always the hardest right? Wish me luck. Again.